Going back to school to become a teacher it turns out is not realistic. Graduating with honors from college may be the dumbest thing I ever did. My liberal arts college created an honors program where instead of the standard general education classes you were put in didn't happen. It instead was a great works approach where you read classics from many many cultures and places (if you've ever wondered why I quote so many things, now you have a bigger clue). It would be thematic like a class called Heroes where we'd read The Odyssey, Don Quixote etc or Scripture where we'd read the Koran, the Bhagava Gita, the Tao Te Ching, the Old Testament. Well it turns out that unless you have standard classes for teachers to have certification you have to have had standard classes or go back to school to do a lot of undergraduate work... and then get the certification... The two school I spoke with told me there are plenty of loans I could get but... well taking out 20 grand in loans for the next years is not realistic after the last couple of years. There are some dreams that cannot be.
I took time off as suggested for that pulled hamstring and
ran once between that and the next timed mile and for the first time in 15
years, I broke a 5 minute mile last Tuesday, 4:58.5. There were about 100
people watching and probably a couple of hundred that heard me scream. I am not
paralyzed. I can still run. I can still think and I have to learn to adjust to
my deficits and as the neuropsychologist recommended learn to compensate which
for some reason in my mind has always been cheating… I didn’t get 22 seconds
off the mile in one year with just luck, it took effort and TIME. I have to learn
to be better about that whole taking time thing. Finding a job is taking a lot
more time than I have left for but the lumosity scores rising, the timed mile
happening, the fact that I’m helping promote the brainpower5k, paying it
forward, those things help me think that maybe there’s some thing that helped.
My birthday was on Wednesday, I turned 32. Last year for my
birthday (as this year) I did absolutely nothing for it other than do something
with Kiana. Last year I took her paddle boarding but this year since she was with
her mother on an extended visit I just went and had lunch with her. Last year
for my birthday I heard about for the first time ever and signed up for the
brainpower5k. This year I made it my facebook status, people were kind enough
to donate $308 to the cause.
I finalized the playlist for that brainpower 5k, where I
hope to break 18 for the first time. Realizing that even though I’m nervous, I’m
frightened of the past, of the future, of the present but that I realize there
are both good and bad things there… that well I’m not paralyzed. That’s the
last song on the playlist, entitled IQ, something I’m still trying, achieving
and hoping to raise and the last song is I’m not paralyzed, something I
dedicate to a significant part of this journey.
Well I'm not paralyzed
But I seem to be struck by you
I wanna make you move
Because you’re standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you
I don’t have a job but I am going to keep moving
and not standing still.
But I seem to be struck by you
I wanna make you move
Because you’re standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you
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